I think it kinda says something when I can't remember what the last thing I blogged about was huh..hee...I know I owe a super duper long and outdated post. Heh..well, a little hard to find the time..Been really busy and all.
Oh right. I had a peek at my last entry. Hee..Ok, so that was on Nov 19, while I was in the thick of my exams. Yeah, now I remember panicking and whining then. So, the exams came and went, a new job came and went, results came and went. My life's been a wee bit more exciting than has been for the longest time I remember. That's kinda alot to blog about in my opinion. Alrite, with what little time I have, I shall proceed to type my usual very chong-hei entry. Here goes. Ahem.
1. Exams...& results
Well as I've said, exams came and went, results came and went. The exams were rather crap. See, I was so despondent that I gave up blogging about it after it was over. For one, as you would have known, I didn't even finish studying half of it. Nah, probably 1/4 at best. So, for Prof Eddie's paper, it took us a little by surprise. Coz some major topics were nowhere to be seen. Next, some questions seemingly do not seem to make use of what we were taught in class. At that point, I didn't know if I should jump for joy or sink lower into depression. But oh heck, I can't very give up there and then in the exam hall. As I've said, I went in with a mentally prepared to flunk. Ironically, perhaps there wasn't any pressure that way? I don't know. Heh. I skipped one question for Prof Eddie's paper. Or rather, I didn't have time to write, even though it would have been rubbish I wrote. Laughable, for someone who didn't study for the paper, I could run out of time huh..yeah, that's perhaps how chong-hei I am. For Dr Kavita's paper, I turn desperate and ended up reading the lecture notes only. As you would know, lecture notes hold the barest details. But well I thought, for someone who has no time to study anything else, wouldn't that have been better than none? And similarly, I thnk at best I completed studying for only 1/3 of the module. Basically, for every question, I just dumped whatever information I know pertaining to that topic/question. And once again, I didn't finish my last question. I wrote 3/4 page for that question, which if I don't remember wrongly, stands for 20 or 25 marks? Oh..best of all..I was late for Dr Kavita's paper. Haha. What a joke.
I'm not sure if I've mentioned this before, but initially, it was thought that C is a pass. Technically, a grade C is "good", meaning still a pass rite? But look at it this other way, we need an accumulated CAP of 2.5 to graduate for all the modules, and a C only brings you a CAP point of 2...hmm...
In any case, I guess I really must thank God for this. He knows how much I don't deserve to pass. And I procrastinate a whole lot. And especially since I know many others deserve better grades than I do. But in fact, He has given me something beyond a pass, something beyond a C, and I know it's not my effort. Some people call it luck, some people call I'm being humble. But really, I'm not. I know where things would have stood for me. Of coz, I still sat for my papers and all. But in a way, I see it as His doing when he planted those questions there. Eg - past year exams, there has ALWAYS been this major topic in communications that sees at least one question being set on it. This time, none. And now on hindsight, the fact that I could do well without doing sufficient preparations/revision probably boils down to 2 reasons. 1, either I've been super attentive (which I'm not really) and absorb all that I've heard, and/or that the questions needed beyond class material to answer (which I did, since I didn't do any revision rite). So there you have it. I passed! And the grades are not bad for both! The next thing I must remember, is to try to keep my promises. Well you see, in moments of desperation, I promise, I swear, I lay down my life (ok a tad too much) that if I could cross this "very difficult" hurdle, I would do regular revision, that I would be more hardworking, etc. Well it's for my own good, so I suppose it's time to put those into actions when school reopens in Jan. *smiles*
2. A New Job!
After four years, I've finally moved on to new challenges. Still the media industry, but a totally different medium altogether. My old job handles the print media, while this new one is TV. Technically yes I still write, but I'm now writingto cater to a different audience. With the medium and audience different, it has become a whole new different ballgame.
To begin with, I really have A LOT to learn...new skills to pick up, even right down to writing skills, and in addition, new things that I've never known about. And you know how daunting that can be. It got overwhelming, honestly it did...to the point that I got turned off, I developed blues...almost like depression. I felt like a 7-year-old who refused to attend Pri 1. At least a Pri 1 kid has more fun than me loh. Haiz.
Oh I forgot to mention. I'm a news producer. Basically I'm part of the team that writes the news for the presenters to read on tv. When the credits roll at the end of the programme, can see my name. Hee..some kind of cheap satisfaction.
The first day was kind..I was on orientation. Basically, to orientate me around the place, the things, etc and WHAM! Day 2 I was thrown into the thick of the action. They let me write a piece or two, and it was kinda hurting to know see my article edited 80%. -.- But now, I've kinda realised that different people have different styles. You see, because everyday, we have different producers, and they are mainly in charge of checking, editing and ensuring that all articles are in and/or good enuff to go on air. So when that happens, I've sometimes got conflicting signals from different producers who edited my work. One would tell me to not do this, while another would be doing that, etc. Stuff like that. And I've also realised that because different producers have different ways of doing things, some just want to edit your work heavily when it's not their style; while another producer would have passed my work with minor changes. So...at this point, I guess it's just a learning curve for me. Not just to learn their different styles, but as one senior told me, to have my own style eventually, to have a particular area I'd like to concentrate on. Mabbe by then, I would have improved and they would think it's alrite to leave my work alone with little amendments.
Come Jan, I'm going to be put on training to learn a new system. I'm looking forward to it, coz I would want to learn whatever there is, and hopefully settle down asap. While on the other hand, I'm afraid of my learning incapability. You see, I always feel that I'm a slow learner. Heh. So since day 1, I've always, and still am worrying about not meeting their expectations, whether in terms of learning ability or skills level.
But I'm glad at least for now, they are giviing me time. But really, I am worrying that they may think I ought to have known this or that by now, which I didn't...how?! sigh...
Everyone on the team seems nice, and they seem to get along well with everyone else. THe chief told me, this is a close-knit team, no politiking. And the way I see, I thnk so too. And if it really is, then I thnk I ought to count my lucky stars...coz I thought after I left my prevous job, it would be next to impossible to find a job with no politicking or backstabbing. Though I must add, the people at the old place are still better. Well mabbe at this new place, they see me as new, and not really one of them as well. I hope the day will come soon when I really can become "one of them" on the team. Sigh. You know how the wk env matters to me more than the money.
Not that the $ isn't good lah..it's definitely better than my old place for sure. And the benefits are better too. So I guess I'm "covered" in that sense. I guess things can be better of coz. I sincerely hope so.
Next up: Low-down on my job =)
