Friday, February 22, 2008

Ehh...what can I say?

Hmm...it's been such a long time since I've last blogged...really no time..otherwise no mood..but suddenly I have the mood now...heh

Well let's see..mabbe a short post now..after all, I'm waiting for bf to get home before we go out..I was supposed to do some reading just now, but I was too tired and fell asleep. Woke up and it was dusk..caught a bit of tv, and here I am now.

That's the kind of life I lead now - waking up wee hours of the morning every weekday, getting home in the afternoon, have lunch and nap, wake up evening/night, do dinner, sleep again to get ready to go to work. Strangely, I work the same number of hours as I've used to, I sleep same/lesser number of hours now, but I don't get the same time to spend with my books. Seriously, I'm in deep trouble this semester. I'm lacking so far behind my readings, submitted a proposal for term paper (which I have no idea what I wrote), followed by term paper, then there's the pair presentation this coming Mon (nothing's done, dunno how to do), group project coming up...oh good lord...I feel myself fainting le...

Life hasn't been that easy, seriously; working in the news room is fast-paced...and difficult. It's tough to adapt, especially when I have to re-learn alot of things...in fact, EVERYTHING. I've no relevant experience to talk about, since I used to come from the print media. It's totally different. Even the way I have to write, tv news is just different from print.

There've been times I've done well, times when I've messed up..it's all part of the learning curve. Like what one of the seniors in my team tells me -- the team didn't have a newcomer for so long, that they've forgotten how to nurture and teach someone. yeah. that someone is me loh. Haha..sigh..
I dunno how things are gonna be..but I'm just taking a "let nature takes its course" mentality. I haven't really decided/deduced if this job, or even this industry is really for me..Just have to "test" it out further and see the outcome. Am I being too pessimistic?