That SMS

The first SMS I got once I stepped off the plane upon touching down in Singapore was from my ex, the one who "borrows" and extorts money from me. At first I thought he wanted more money again. After all, he kept messaging me non-stop while I was in Australia, saying that he needed to talk to me. Like I said before, I really dread receiving his calls and sms and whatever. If I can help it, I really wish I could shut him out of my life...ever! I wished I had never known him.

ANyway, I digress. The first part of his sms beat about the bush, saying how we would always be the best of frens, how I can always depend on him (like I want to), blah blah...THEN, the main point came. He has a new gf already. What the...?!

I am upset and pissed, but allow me to clarify. Upset coz he owed me a bomb and yet he had the nerve to hook up with some other girl. C'mon, I don't think he is going to let the girl pay when they go out yah? At least not for now (but he eventually will). So, rather than returning $ to me, he is going to spend it on that girl!

All my anger came rushing back at that moment. I mean, for one thing, I was relieved that he finally can be off my back now that he has a new girl to occupy him. But for sure, I was pissed. I had stood by him for the worse part of the his life, our relationship underwent hardships and suffered (sort of like poverty-related issues)...and now that he is coming out of it, he hooks up with another girl and that girl benefits from it all! Ok...whatever.

Of course I'm not gonna tell him all these, lest he thinks I'm jealous (I'm 1000% not) or that I still have feelings and therefore am reacting in such a big way. Initially, I intended to reply to his sms and wished him the best. But somehow, I was too pissed to even pretend that I was happy for him. So I ended up doing nothing. ANyways, he doesn't need my blessings nor approval. He can go pimp for all I care now.

My only constant worry is my pet bunny. I really am not sure how to settle the issue. Especially now that he has a new girl. I can't be going by his house as and when as I darn pleased, can I? He said that "his girl knows about us and is okay with it"...What the FISH! One, I wonder what she knows (the lies he feeds her with). I'm already guessing that the picture he painted of me is damn ugly and smudgy. Whatever. She can learn the truth about his lies eventually. Just hopefully not in the same way as I did, bless her.

I've been seriously considering to give her up to someone who can really love her. My circumstances doesn't allow me to. My heart aches whenever I talk and think about her. But, given the present situation, that seems to be the most feasible solution. God, what should I do? Show me the way please!