Death

These few weeks are indeed getting depressing. One sad news after another.

About a week ago, my second sister's mother-in-law's maid (sounds kinda distant) fainted one fine day. She was rushed to the hospital, and immediately warded into the ICU. That's where she still is today, not out from a coma. Doc says she's bleeding in the brain, and they are running more tests on her to determine her condition. It was really a shocker. No one expected that, since she was so young and able. THen again, we've been told never to determine your state of health through "observations".

And the other shocker came today. This guy we (us in the office) know was diagnosed with cancer following a routine check-up. With a young family in toll, naturally this news affected them rather badly. So far only Moses, Tricia and myself know about it...Moses told Tricia, n she in turn told me. And she told me not to tell anyone else. And I'm in a terrible dilemma, coz CIndy doesn't know it, and I wish I could tell her.

We were doing BS just now, and at the close of the session, I shared with CIndy about my sis' mother-in-law's maid. And that's when I recalled what Tricia told me...then I didn't know what to say/tell her. I wanted so, so much to tell her; but I know if I had told her, I couldn't possibly tell her to pretend not to know it...she would HAVE to do something about it! And if she does approach him, he probably MAY be upset that Moses told, and Moses would be upset that Tricia told, and Tricia would b upset that I told...

Argh..what a mess.

One of my frens said I probably should leave it to the family and not get involved. This, afterall, is their family matters. Well perhaps he's rite. It just gets me so...upset, that I'm sitting across from her just now, telling her what happen to this person (without naming names of coz) and yet, I wasn't able to tell her that this is him!

I can just imagine her despondency...couple of weeks ago, she lost a very gd fren to nose cancer; and now this, within her family.

I can only pray that she would take it well; I know she will be ok. But I'm just really worried for him and his family.

And I just don't understand why...we SAY things like, Oh yes we should treasure one another and make the best, blah blah..but we rarely do it. At times, we probably even dissed the other person. But it takes times like these for people to come to their senses, to start feeling apologetic & sorry for not doing their best for that person, for not being nice enuff, for not being kind enuff, etc etc...Why?

Yah I know, I'm guilty of it too. I remembered the times that I was rude (in the name of jokes), that I was impatient, that I wasn't helpful enuff, that I wasn't nice enuff...so so much more. These are harmless of coz, but it really makes for some heart-breaking times.

Couple of years ago, I articulated to a fren that I was rather fortunate not to have undergone much heartache over love ones who passed on, whether it's frens or family. Guess I spoke too early. It didn't occur to me then that as one gets older, the more separations and partings will come. I was indeed fortunate when I was younger, as compared to some who had already toughened due to lost-loved ones. But I guess we all end up on equal footing eventually.

Close to me was my grandad of course. THen there were others, like this situation. One can never get used to death, isn't it?