Hmm..it seems that lately I have been posting rather depressing stuff only...guess I'm too influenced by all that's happening around me lately...which isn't a gd thing, is it...Means I get overly affected le...
But really, there doesn't seem much happy things I can talk about (means don't have, not that I don't want to talk about them). I'm facing alot of backlog at work; I found out some stuff abt an issue that has been bugging me for the longest time, tt seem to suggest tt I may just end up upset and depressed when the issue comes to a closure (yeah, it's only a deduction on my part, but still...mabbe it's intuition?); I'm losing interest in my own life...as in, I don't find as much pleasure in alot of things anymore, even in things I used to love or enjoy alot...Nothing seems to have any taste...yet I find my life mundane and boring. Contradiction, I know.
It's kinda like, I've lost purpose, lost drive. Instead of looking forward to gd things happening, I seem to be dreading things...ok granted, perhaps it's coz things hvnt been going my way, that I no longer want to look forward to anythg. Ok, maybe I'm just being too negative here. Technically, nothing bad really happen..nothing to warrant a "Black Friday" terminology, but neither is there anything good to boast about. It's like, something isn't right, but you just can't pinpoint what it is. And it's bugging the hell out of me. Sigh.
Damn...I really need some good news to give me that boost, that extra perk...if not I think my life may just spiral downwards. Out of control even. I hope help will arrive...I dunno what sort, but......soon.
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