Exam Blues =(

I know I have been updating in the most sporadic manner...and this probably counts as one of the most unusual time to be updating my blog...coz I'm sitting for the dreaded exam tomorrow.

Bummer.

Well, I really should not be blogging, but studying...especially considering that I'm super ill-prepared this semester. Remember how I was saying that last sem was bad? Well I'm not so sure which is worse now. For all you know, this could possibly be worse. After all, this module this sem is harder. Although it's open-book...but you know what's the deal with open-books...it's trickier and possibly even harder. I don't know. I just have this sense of forebidding, that's been plaguing me since god-knows-when. Yeah...God...help! I know all that promise I made last sem, sort of flew out of the window. I've just gotten so slack in the process. I supposed adapting to this new work schedule of unearthly hours has taken a toll on me. On top of that, I think I just didn't start revision, or take leave early enuff. AND once again...all I'm asking for is a miracle pass...yeah, even a pass is a miracle. Coz I think I wrote crap for my term paper; presentation wasn't good...haiz.

Anyways, I got "inspired" to blog this coz of Ben...honestly, he's been updating his blog ever so often...like, every 2-3 days? -.- that fellow's a scholar la. Well that aside...he talked about what he's gonna do once exams are over (can check out his blog link on the side panel...I'm too lazy to link now. heh). Well, I supposed EVERY one of us have big plans what we wanna do.

Me....

1. I didn't shop much this month...heh, wait! That doesn't mean I'm gonna do it okies. It was just a passing remark off the head. Anyways...mabbe I would just go browse or window-shop or something. Nothing hardcore..haha..just..you know, browse, and if I see somehting I like, well and good. Hee...

2. I need to exercise! Think I'm puting on the pounds. I'm feeling very uncomfortable about my body now. Physically I mean. Geez...I'm just so lazy.

3. I need to catch up with ..."stuff". Things that I'm supposed to do and lay my hands on, but I've either procrastinated too much, or it just simply wasn't on my agenda; aka, forgot. Ahem. Let's see...things like photos? prezzies? Oh boy there're just so many.

4. Housekeeping...all round in my room, table, wardrobe, etc...even my mobile disk! Things are just getting so untidy in that little black box that it irks me so to see my things all over the place. Grrrr.

5. Of coz, there's still the catching-up I would need to do. I seem to have neglected ppl...first up, I intend to go bck n visit my ex-offc peeps. Then calling the various grp of ppl. Or mabbe wait for some others to date me too. Haa.

6. Erh...I've no idea what's next. But I'm feeling guilty about my revision again, so I shall just leave it at this and not rack my brains anymore.

In the meantime, chaos...wish me luck, and pray for me. I need it!

Wish Tuesday were here...

I'm so angry with you...you've made me so upset.


I can't let go of the thought of you and how mean you've been.


And you keep doing things to upset me.


All you ever say is just "then what you expect me to do"...or "Can you don't be angry anymore"


But much as I hate to admit this...
I do miss you loads.


I just wish you'll come back soon. =(

Never trust ME

omg..it's april already..just like that, four months of a "brand new" year have flashed by. I'm going to have my exams soon. As I've been telling everyone, this sem is a goner. I've not done any readngs...and I've only applied for 4-days leave (was 5, but had to go bck that one day coz I'm supposed to be on training that day...it's "compulsory" *roll eyes*) I don't think I can accomplish much in that four days rite? now I wish I had applied for more. You may be wondering what the problem is...just apply now loh...well mister n missy, it's not as easy as that..especially when we have a roster to adhere to, and as it is, we'r getting really shorthanded.

Sigh.

I'm getting scared..last thing I want is an F grade or something..I would hate to think I'd get an ugly but pass grade displayed on my transcript, but now I think I would appreciate the "ugly" grade anyday than an F grade.

As it is, I'm supposed to be on leave today, rushing out a term paper that's due on Monday. I've not done anything (That's not surprising anymore isn't it?)...absolutely nothing..no readings, no research. All I have is a hastily put together proposal which was handed in couple of weeks ago. My lecturer replied with some comments, sayign that my reading list is not concrete enough. I know that too! But I just can't seem to find anything substantial on the topic! God I hate this.

After I came home yesterday (thursday), I was so tired (as usual), so I thought, ok, I'll go get some zz then mabbe wake up and get started. THEN, I woke up and surfed net, watched tv and thought...hmm, nvm, I'll get started tomoro...afterall, with enough rest and zz, I can wake fresh and bright and get started. As it is, it's friday, I woke up 11am (which is almost close to the time I would have knocked off from work anyway) and comforted myself: I know it's late, but hey, I would have come home tired and wanting to zz if I had gone to work today! Now, I can concentrate and get started. Once again, I procrastinated and lazed and surfed net. FINALLY, I opened my word application, took out some notes.

I know...I should have known better than to trust myself.