Hmmm....

I've always been not really happy about the way things were in office...especially about how "Lao Lao" always like to laud over us, and bully the ones she can into doing things for her. I'm not the kind who will complain or say no, so normally I get walked, stepped and trampled over. Isa is rebellious in her own ways sometimes (and I do admire her for her guts sometimes), which causes Lao Lao to be unhappy, then she throws her tantrum. -.-''

Same thing happened in office just now, when Lao Lao asked me to search something for her. Isa was waiting for me to go off together actually; so when she asked me, I said hang on. Upon hearing that, Lao Lao told me she will do the search herself. Anyways, to cut the long story short, Isa left first, and I stayed for another hour to clear some more stuff. By the time I was going to leave, I asked Lao Lao again if she has found what she wanted. She said no, and that she had emailed the relevant people to see if they have the soft copy, otherwise she would type it out then. At this point, I offered to do the typing for her then, and not have to wait and all. She said "no need" in a kind manner, and said that I have my own things to rush. I told her it's ok, I don't mind typing stuff coz I do quite enjoy it too (it's true), but she declined. At this point, I felt a little bad. The point is, somehow I felt a little ashamed of myself. I mean, there are times when I really don't mind helping ppl do things...just that sometimes these ppl (eg. Lao Lao) take ppl and things for granted, and that's what riles me. But actually, all these while, I guess I don't really mind doing such stuff, so why am I complaining?

Okok, I know what I'm complaining...I know what I'm upset about. Thing is, if I really don't mind helping, then mabbe I should let go of such negative feelings...then mabbe I would feel better. It's kinda like, owe me if u want, but I shdn't owe ppl. It's hard being the nice/good guy sometimes, coz that's the reality of the world we live in today. I guess the balance is hard to find. We normally end up being veered more to a certain side. Can't help it I guess.

ANyways, my point is, I shall try to be nice and not complain so much =D