Going Away

Ahh...the pleasures of going on a holiday! I'm finally going away for my long-overdue and long-awaited for holiday tomorrow! Let's see, the last time I went away for a holiday was some five years ago...FIVE long years...whew

Strangely, I don't feel really excited or anything. Everyone around me kept asking me this question, and when I told them I wasn't eager-beaver sort, they would say:

1. (On Monday) Four more days to flying off for your holidays! Are you raring to go already?

- Today is Thursday and I still don't feel anything.

2. Wait till you start packing for the trip, you will get keyed up!

- Well I have packed and am almost ready to jet off...but I still don't feel anything.

3. Wait till you are at the airport waiting for your flight. You surely will be excited!

- Is that so? Well...we'll see then.

In my opinion, the following explanations could be why I'm not feeling how I should be feeling.

1. Stress: Even before leaving for my trip, I'm already thinking about the work pile-up and the stuff I have to catch up on when I'm back!

2. I've been to Australia before. Though this time I'll be travelling to more places like Sydney, Melbourne, Brisbane and perhaps to Cairns, I would be much more excited if I were going to somewhere that I've never been to before. Always does get me hyped up that way. *grin*

3. Thinking about the tons of money I would be splurging...gosh! Gives me a headache already!

4. Premonition? Sometimes I don't feel good/excited when I'm supposed to be, and then something bad takes place. It happens...though I'm not sure if I'm over sensitive.

Anyways...I guess I think too much, worry too much and consider too much. Heck! Just enjoy myself yah...Even if something bad happens, well, at least I would die a happy person...Haha...*Touch wood of course*

But yes, apart from feeling stressed (coz of work and stuff), I am glad that I'm taking a break. In a way, I'm glad that finally, I'm getting a break and rest (more than the holiday itself). And when I do come back, my brother will be back together with me, and little Reiko will see her uncle! Haha...I will miss her when I'm away...and the little four-month tot probably will not remember much of me after I get back. Sigh...