Not Again!

Guess what? When I opened my eyes this morning (after much difficulty as usual), I did what I would normally do - check my handphone. Hmm...three messages through the nite?

When I first saw the sender, I realised it was my ex-boyfriend. My first thought was "uh-oh, not again!". I was so-not-in-the-mood to entertain anything from him, and I half expected him to blast me again in his SMS, which he had already done on Sunday afternoon. Every now and then, he would get into these fits of temper-throwing at me, for all kinds of business. Honestly, I was and am getting sick and tired of his tantrums...for one, it spoils my mood EVERYTIME he smses me, whether its good or bad news. Secondly, he LIKES to spoil my mood with his SMSes. Crap.

But what I saw next caught me a little off-guard, I must admit. He actually asked for a patch. *!!!* The cheek of him, after how he has ruined half of my life. And now that when I'm finally, slowly but surely, getting back on my feet, he has the gall to come and ask to sit down and talk things through. He said how he has not and could not let go of our (past) relationship...even though HE HAS A GIRLFRIEND NOW. What the...

What does he treat me? What does he treat his girlfriend? The way he treated me then still rings clearly in my mind. And even after we broke up (till now), when he's in a good mood, he will just sms me about how he ran into our mutual friends. When he's in a cranky mood, basically he will rile at me and "verbally-abuse" me...Initially I got affected by what he always had to say (as what happened in a previous entry), but now, i can't be bothered much. Actually to be honest, I think I'm more scared of him than pissed, but I know I can't let him know that, because I think he would likely use that to his advantage. God knows the many nights that I spent cursing and swearing myself, for getting together with him in the first place.

Anyways, it's no point saying such things now...I'm just so utterly disgusted with him. There were some other things that he mentioned (which I'm not going to say), that really got on my nerves and put me off totally. I think his girlfriend would be rather upset if she got to know of this. Anyways, I told him I've just got busier and busier, especially during these days leading to that trip which my boss was intending to send me. I told him I've just gotta work harder, and that I'm happy with the way I am now, thank you very much. So, bottomline is, no time to meet him (truth), no time to think anything else (perhaps not). Anything he wishes to say, I can talk to him over the phone, which he declined because he feels nothing constructive will come out of it - horrors of all horrors! I wouldn't want ANYTHING to come out of it...Good Lord!