Mumblings

Ok, so I've packed my room...albeit incomplete. The task is half-done, but well...it's getting late. Not that I'm going to bed anytime soon...just that my sister would be, so I'd beter stop whatever I'm doing before I disturb the pregnant woman from having her beauty sleep. It's a Saturday, so my 2nd sister usually brings my niece, with her maid in toll, and stays over at my place. She lives at the north part of Singapore, and it's not exactly most convenient for her to travel to my place often enough for my mom to see her and the kid. So the arrangement is such that she'll stay over with us every Sat (almost). Amazing how the apartment can fit so many of us. On Sat, if I stay the night at home, there'll be like eight adults, including 2 maids, 3 kids. In time to come, once my 2nd sis gives birth, there'd be 4 kids! What can I say, other than woah? =DDD

Though I'm much tempted to complain in this entry, I've told myself to refrain from making this a depressing blog entry. So...let's see, what other stuff can we talk about? Hmm...like the shopping I did on Fri? =D Been ages since I went shopping and bought clothes actually. And I wasn't done! There were still shops I hadn't gone into, clothes I was still considering to buy or not...Haiz. But I must say the haul that day wasn't too bad. 2 dresses (though I do kinda regret buying one of them now), 1 culottes, 1 top and 1 skirt. Oh, and a running top, dri-fit. I'm surviving with one currently, and before it gets really washed out or something, I figured I better rotate with another. Not that I don't already own some other dri-fit tops...but they're all with sleeves. I dislike wearing tops wf sleeves when I'm running...kinda irritates me.

Ok, back to Friday's shopping. I had the day off, so got some decent sleep, then woke up and got out. It was a fruitful day, although shopping was all I did. Then I spent the day over at my 2nd sis' place. Before that, I had dinner wf her family. Nice outing. I like this kid niece of mine. =D After dinner at downtown east, walk around abit then went back her place about 10. Got a shower, then "pretended" to change and go to bed...In fact, we were preparing to slip out to catch a movie without my niece =p Caught midnite show "Angels and Demons". Sat morn, my sis took my niece for her piano lessons while I spent the hour loiterin at the mall while I waited for them. After tht, had lunch at Thomson. But I ended up being very uncomfortable with an impending diarrohea. I had only myself to blame, for indulging in that Mac milkshake. I can NEVER drink Mac stuff that has milk ie. milo, milkshake, etc. Must be the milk they use, super high level of lactose, which is so totally not agreeable with the lactose-intolerant me. Grrrr. Anyways, we all drove back to my place after lunch, where all of us, tired from the late night gallivanting, just had to go nap. haha. Night time, went NTUC to get some juice after dinner. Shared with my 2 sis some snacks from Japan while watching a horror but worthless show on HBO. -.-

Hmm..just realised I had almost given a blow-by-blow account of my activities since Fri. Sounds boring I know...but I guess in a way, the simplicity of it all was good fun too. I guess sometimes that's what "rest" is all about - taking things slow, sharing and spending time with people you care about =)

I guess the enforced leave that my company designates for all of us are good in a way. Lesser pay for the time being yes, but at least I get to go on leave, and not suffer freq burn-outs. All of us are going on leave every mth. Yup, my nx leave is in June, which will be in about 2 weeks' time. Then, it's off to Taiwan for "night market exploring" with a gf. More shopping! =DDD BUT means I've gotta try to save more money this month. Haiz. Too little too late =/

But meantime...it's back to work, and back to my life, back to reality. And my future hangs in limbo for now. I'll know the outcome by end of this week. Please, pray hard for me.

just for laughs...

Courtesy of one of my morning presenters -

One day, Siew Mai was bored and decided to invite Man Tou to the movies. They decided on a comedy, and once inside, Siew Mai could hardly control his emotions - he laughed hard at all the funny scenes, he shed tears when parts of it got emotional...but all these while, Man Tou showed no emotion at all...Do you know why?

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Coz Man Tou has no FEE-LING! )ie. filling)

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So, the rather pissed Siew Mai decided that Man Tou was no fun to go out with, and decided to enjoy the movie with another...this time, he invited Da-Bao to the show, and...........whenever Siew Mai laughed, Da Bao laughed louder. Whenever Siew Mai cried, Da-Bao wept louder. Hmm...why?

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Coz Da-Bao has more FEE-LING!! (ie. filling)

SO...Siew Mai thought - too drama, don't wanna go to the movies with Da-Bao..so he decided to invite Dou Sha Bao this time. At the movies, Dou Sha Bao laughed at the appropriate times, cried when things got too emotional...nothing over the top. BUT ~ Siew Mai sat through the entire show expression-less, motion-less! WHY?

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C'mon, wouldn't you be if you sat through the same movie 3 times?! -.-

~hahahaha...duh~

Bangkok Photos

I'm absolutely in no mood to blog. Well obviously, I'm back in Singapore after a wonderful 2-week holidays. It's depressing to be back in reality, where work and school just dictates every hour, every minute and every second of my life.

Ever since I got back from Aussie land, I've started dreaming again. Eh, I'm refering to the literal dreams, the dreams that bug me at night, every night. Before my trip, I was having dreams, nightmares and what-have-yous every night. During my trip, it was perfect..nothing. No dreams to keep me from a good night's rest. Ever since I stepped onto Sunny Singapore, Ka-boom! You have it - the dreams come to me EVERYNIGHT without fail. Some horrifying, some ridiculous. I just wake up tired, like having not rested. I tell everyone I have the good fortune of "watching" a movie every night. When I sleep that is.

And the stress level is increasing for me, so much so that I feel foolish at the things I do. Last night I poured myself a glass of juice from the fridge, and after a good time sipping it, I washed the glass, and guess what? I proceeded to "return" the glass to the freaking fridge. -.- Another one. I was walking along the Orchard underpass at CK Tangs, where the row of atms are? Opp the ATMs is this panel of wall with a big advert black-&-white. You know what? There was a lady dressed in orange leaning on the wall (presumably waiting for someone), she had her head tilted to the left, and when I walked past the wall, she moved (turned to look in my direction) and I was taken aback. I got a fright (seriously). I thought she was part of the advert, and I thought I was seeing things. -.- And and...this a good one too. I was at Orchard MRT Station popular book store, and when I wanted to catch 190 home, all I could think of was, the bus stop is located behind Wisma. And the unbelievably smart me took the escalator down the mrt station, out to Wisma, cut through Wisma to 3rd level, exited Wisma and towards the bus stop. For all who aren't sure of the location of the freaking bus stop...it's just outside the MRT station. All I needed to do, was to take the escalator UP and OUT to the bus stop. Unbelievable.

Ok enough. I don't want to go on about it. Anyway I ought to get back to my work. I just wanted to upload these photos taken at Bangkok earlier this year with my two pals, Lyn and Audrey. I'll do some commentary next time if I have the time. Haa. Here goes.

Day 1 - On the plane, arrival at the Surva-dunno-what airport, a sumptuous lunch at Siam Paragon (Jap food, the cheap and a lot quantity one), night shopping at a night market (some General's market or dunno what..can't remb now. heh)

This was at the famous Chatuchak market. The place is seriously so big, we barely completed one block from 9am-9pm. Also the time when we re-wrote a record: Shopping for 12-hour straight with only a 1/2hr lunch break. Nope, no toilet breaks too. Are you up to the challenge of shopping with us? Wahahaha..

Saw this interesting advert at the MBK Shopping Mall...can't remember whether they were advertising bras or breast enhancement services. Click on it to see what "type/shape" your boobs are. Wahaha...

Nothing much...just some shops near the hotel we were staying at. Interesting shops. We shopped through the four days, we didn't even do any body or foot massages. Kinda waste huh.

And yes, that's the room the 3 of us bunked in. Messed up by our shopping wares. We hardly had room to move about. What you see is not what you get. There's more stuff not captured in the picture. Wahaha. We stayed in Novotel Siam Square, a really cool place. Definitely well located (in the heart of everything), comfortable, not too ex! The "innocent" me have nv been on a shopping holiday, so I brought 2 small luggages, which hardly was enough obviously. The other 2 girls were way smarter. They brought huge luggages (those that can bring you on a 12-day tour to Europe type), which was empty when we just reached, and packed full by the time we left. Audrey even had to unzip a special pocket in her luggage to give additional space. Smart girl.

Supposedly one of the better delicacies that's cheap and good. Know what this is? Bird's Nest. But hell no, it looks like erm...something tested in the labs...complete with the blue containers. -.- Tasted bad too. Yucks. After which we learnt, we ought to have bought from the neighbouring stall. ~ bummers

Our last breakfast at the hotel before heading to the airport. Nice food. International buffet breakfast, though the variety is a tad disappointing. Oh well. But I love their waffles. They had all kinds of exotic fruits to go with it (take ur pick), and the fruits were fresh and juicy. Fresh pickings I must say. Nice!

At the airport, while waiting for our flight. We decided to pool our resources together and splash all on a nice treat. The girls were nice...they decided to indulge me...ICE CREAM! Yum!

Sadly...it was back to Singapore. A short four-day trip. Certainly not enough. I dislike going for short trips actually. It's like, before you know it, you have to take the flight back. Bummer rite. Well there were more places we visited..but no time to take pictures. haha..But then again, it was a nice trip, spending bonding time and stuff like that, with the girls. We endeavour to go somewhere again soon (dunno how soon also), and hopefully, the other 3 girls can make it too! Cheers!

How Nice...

Yes! Finally, the moment I've been waiting for...

I'll be boarding the plane in like another 4hrs, and jetting off in 5hrs time. While majority of the people are riding the mrt. Muahaha...Sounds great doesn't it? It's a well-deserved break ok...though albeit pocket-burning. Heh...

I ought to be sleeping by now...no, I ought to be waking up soon. I rushed home from class, work on the last parts of my articles (work) and I just completed my packing. I'm just so going to look like a panda loh -.- No choice. Small price to pay I guess..sigh.

I pack some readings onto the plane with me. Readings as in school assignment readings, not storybook reading. THough I did bring a copy of TIME magazine with me. I would be real glad if I can catch forty winks on the plane loh...but as it is, it's strange how come I can sleep on the mrt but not plane. *shrug*

Okies..cya back in another 2weeks time...where I'll be depressed to be back..and definitely too depressed to blog. Sigh.

So how do you measure up?

Go try this silly test. Haha...

New Year's Eve Party Photos

Gonna do a short post here today. Managed to put together a quick montage of shots, and these were taken...erm, heh.. abit paiseh to say even...earlier this year, during the new year's eve party...wahahaha! Yah I know what a slacker I am. Alright here goes:

Tomorrow!

And thus marks my fourth entry for this month. How pathetic. Oh well. Can't say much, except no time, no mood. Think after this entry, the nx one will come like at least one or two weeks later.

I'm not in much bitching mood lately. Heh..that's not to say I do all bitching entries only ok. My bro left for HK with his gf this morning, holiday loh...so good loh. Hmpt...my last 4-day break was in Apr...*sulk* But hey! *big smiles* My dear is coming back tomoro from the States! Yayy! Can't wait. But well...as I've said previously, it will be a short-lived one week before he goes back to Sydney for his last term. No, six days, to be precise. I ought to be appreciative that it's gonna be the last half year now. But still, you know five/six months are still hard to get over. I'm praying hard that nothing will thwart my Sept plans to go over. With that Sept break, it can at least break the monotony of having to wait the whole half-year before we meet. At least it's a two-month wait first, then another three-month or so. Sigh. I'm so worried there would be assignments or projects. Actually, there's bound to be! So what then?! Argh...I'm not gonna think about that yet. Hmpt. Dun wanna spoil his homecoming first. We'll deal with that when we come to it.


I didn't know his flight was scheduled to touch down at midday. He said "afternoon", and I thought it was like 4 or 5 in the afternoon, to say the least. So I thought, ok, 4 or 5, he'll reach home abt 6, let him unpack and stuff, I'll be able to meet him after work for dinner or smthg. Perfect! But nooo...sigh. Now I'm kinda wishing I had taken half-day tomr! He's scheduled to touch down like 11+, so I presumed he'll be home by 12+, 1. And if I were on half day, I will knock off at 1, which then is just perfect arrangement. =( Now I've gotta spend the remaining hrs at work. Oh well...I guess it's good that he'll go home and unpack and catch a nap or smthg before I meet him in the evening loh. Normally things would be rather chaotic once you come back from overseas rite. I'm trying to convince myself that it's better I stay out of the warzone first.


Well, I've applied for leave on Thurs and Fri, so that I can spend more time with him before he goes back. THis month somehow just zooms by. Initially I wanted to apply Tues too. Actually, I'm kinda kicking myself now that I didn't apply for Tues in the beginning. Now may just be too late. I was desperately trying to clear my work last week, knowing that I'll b on leave this week, and was hoping that I can throw in the Tues as well...but that was real hard. Now, leave on Tues seems more and more out-of-reach. ='(


Oh, I went to cover an event on Fri nite, and it was erm, funny...interesting to say the least. Well, it was interesting to find myself the subject of the videographer's & photographer's target...Hee. I was there to cover the event as a rep from the newsletter section, and they had actually engaged another videographer and photographer too. Perhaps they were too bored, I dunno. But it's kinda funny when the photographer tried to steal shots in the midst of shooting the Minister. It was flattering, I must say. Haha...Ok, I don't think he's hao-se lah...Probably just cheeky, for the fun of it. Although there were definitely chee-ko-peks there at the event. Hmpt. Tried to get fresh, omg. Yuck. Act blur and walk away is the best lesson I've learnt since my three years in this line. But I'd say, time to learn and store new tricks man.


I've been actively feeding non-stop on this gummy "Starburst". Sophia describes it as the most yummilicious gummies on earth. Somehow, the chewiness is just nice. Sweet yes, but strangely addictive. Even my boss, who doesn't have a penchant for sweet stuff, couldn't keep her hands off it. Heh. Her famous words: Get this thing away from me! Hahaha...It's available in Spore. I saw it selling at Taka, but super ex man, like more than half the price it was being sold in Australia. My dear J brought it back for me =D


I've recently ported my online photos from yahoo over to flickr. As we all know, yahoo really is gonna shut their photos portal. Anyways, I've yet to update the links by the side panel. Not to mention the tonnes of photos I've yet to upload online too. kwah-kwah. When I have time and when I remb. Heh.


Ok, gonna put some pics up today. First set:





These were taken at East Coast last Weds. My office peeps are really nice. The previous week, when my Mr J had just barely left, Moses suggested going to do something to help cure me of my lovesickness. Haha..Sophia suggested cycling, and I was all for it! =) Isabel had to work late, so she didn't join us. But still, we had loads of fun. =) Tricia and myself are just sooo photo-people. Hee. Anything, anywhere, you can bet we'll whip our camera out and just shoot. Hee. 1stly, that's why we buy cameras! 2ndly, photos are great keepsakes ok. We went for dinner after that. Not sure if the food is really great or that we were really famished by then, but we could hardly wait to devour the food when it arrived. Digressing, I seem to have turned into this huge gluttony growing child. No amount of food seem sufficient. Sigh. On top of the bad news, I had become lazy at my runs too. Argh! Sign of depression? Sigh...

Ok, here's the next batch of photos.

A mini birthday celebration for me, in office, by my office peeps. Btw, I didn't commision these photos. Our dear Tricia just went trigger-happy. Haha...I do appreciate that though. Great keepsakes =)

Sat Nite @ Zouk

I haven't had such fun in a long time =) So does that mean I have a boring life, or boring frens? *ponders* Coz the last time I went St James was rather boring. Pauline and I agreed that it must have been the crowd we went with. The music's good at Zouk, I must add. Citibank card got me in for free, the guys bought the drinks. Haha..

Pauline asked me out to zouk last night; was organised by Jocelyn. Apart from her and Jocelyn, I didn't know who else was going or how big the group would be. But well, when it comes to Jocelyn, we can always trust her to jio her different grps of frens together. But me n my big mouth - I didn't know that she had broken up wf her bf recently, and well...u know, I shoot my mouth off. Haiz. Of coz she didn't blame me =) But well, I still felt bad. Then again, with the hoards of guys swarming around her..haha. Let's just say she has no lack of suitors. *grin*

Seems that the bunch was pretty much acquainted actually, initially I kinda felt a little odd. But well, it soon passed and we were rather acquainted after a while. Sua ku as I am, I learnt to play the fav guessing game that seemed to be many ppl's alcohol companion. As usual I couldn't drink much lest the allergy monster attacks...so I got a fren to drink for me if I lost. =p Well, he gallantly offered and I did thank him. Haha.

Coincidentally, Adrian was supposed to meet his friends at Zouk too, and while my frens have all reached, his hadn't, so he joined me and my friends first. Albeit paiseh to say, that was my first time at Zouk in my 26 yrs. What? I'm a guai guai girl ok. Heh. Anyways, everyone drank, played their stuff, talked, then decided to hit the dance floor. And fyi, I can't dance for nuts. I've got two left feet. So I felt kinda awkward being there too. Esp when the gang got high, and started dancing. I mean, really dancing. But they don't want to leave me at the table alone, so...yeah.

Anyways, I was just swaying and stuff, then this guy came along and asked if he could know me. I was a little surprised, coz from what I could tell, this chap is young, definitely younger than I am. I found out that he was serving his NS, is 20 this year. And interestingly, he thot I was still studying. Haha...I look THAT young huh? *Ahem* heh...

It definitely turned out to be an interesting nite. I mean, to begin with, I wasn't THAT keen to go, knowing that I probably wouldn't know more than half the peeps in the group, but well, I thot anything beats mopping at home. And the next thing I know when I'm there, I have guys vying for my attention. THree, may I add. Heh. It is flattering, I must say.

But one of them...well he's kinda irritating. He tried to take advantage of me, touching my face on the pretext of "feeling how flushed he is". Initially, I thot he was being friendly, when I saw him touching my other frens. I siam, but one time I couldn't siam fast enuff. Yeah, he did it more than one time loh. He touched my cheek, and I got really pissed. I told him off, not fierce, but definitely not polite. I made it clear to him not to touch me again. He tried to laugh it off as an innocent thing, but I tink the look on my face must hv said quite a fair bit. He didn't try to do anythign subsequently. Initially he tried to come close while we were on the dance floor, but thank god for Pauline and Jocelyn and Adrian - I used them as shields. Heh.

Another one, I'm smart enough to know that he was interested. Ha..so I siamed him. I just acted blur, moving out of his way "unknowingly" whenever he tries to come by...talking to Pauline and Jocelyn whenever he tries to strike a conversation. True enough, Pauline told me later that the reason why she intro-ed us was coz he told her he wanted to know me.

But well...I didn't go out of boundary. I do remember the ring resting on my fourth finger, I do know that my heart has no room for others =)

Tricia's Birthday *click on photos to read captions*

Another new post of photos =) a picture paints a thousand words, aint it?
Haha...well I'm actually in the midst of writing a very long post, so it still is "in production". In the meantime, I shall just put some photos up to satisfy some bored souls while I try to get other entries in order. Amateur photoshopping, so no laughing allowed.

Photos

Let me put up some long overdue photos before we kick off with any post...even the pictures are like "outdated" - 6mths ago. Wahaha...Enjoy. Yeah ok, nothing to enjoy. Just some egoistic, hastily photoshopped pictures. But well..whatever.

Boss brought us to the Il Lido Restaurant at the Sentosa Silosa Golf Course. In Moses' opinion, they are overpriced and the food is only so-so. But well, I thought it was quite alright. Maybe coz I'm not so picky. The food is expensive no doubt. But hoh...I miss the food now...heh

The things we do...hehe...

Yummilicious...

Now you don't see me, now you do!

Myriad of photos...

Playing with shadows...can be quite fun actually =)

It's Mother's Day today...Happy Mother's Day to one and all. Guess this would be applicable to my mom, my grandmom, and even my two sisters. Haha..anyways..still a little heady from the wine last nite. In fact, I just woke up awhile ago. From the Passito range, sweet wine. But man, it was rather strong. Thankfully the rashes were not as bad today. Heh...So I shall just load some pictures; taken during CNY (yeah I know I always lag abit). We went to Moses' place for dinner on a weekday after work. People who were there: Moses, Michael, Tricia, Lily, Angela, Amy, Isabel and myself. Sophia would have been there too, if not for the fact that she was far away in the US. Anyways, not a bad turn-out actually. I look fat don't I?! Heh. Enjoy.

short update before bedtime....

Something different on a Monday evening - going into Johor for some cheap dinner =D

One of my bosses drove myself, Tricia and Isabel into Johor just now for some cheap seafood. Cheap yes...but so-so only. Nothing yummilicious like Taman Sentosa (not sure if this is the right spelling). True, Taman Sentosa isnt that clean or nice; a little on foul-smelling side, some would even say. But the last time I went there for seafood (which was quite a while ago I must say) was not too bad really.

This place we went just now was 20min away from the second link through Tuas, at a place called "Skudai" or something like that (not sure if the spelling is rite). Four of us had chilli crabs, prawns, frog (them, certainly not me), 2 plates of beancurd tofu (quite nice) and this fancifully-named mushrooms (which is nice too). All these for RM82, which works out to be approx RM20 each - that's like SGD10. Cheap indeed =D Would have been more satisfying had the food been great. And for now, with all those cholestrol and fats in my system, I just have to do the additional 5 rounds tomr (on top of my usual) *faint*

But anyways, the trip itself was good. We had lotsa laughter along the way, cracking silly jokes and talking crap. And because of the not-so-satisfying chilli crab, we actually made a pact to go AMK Ave 2 to try the famous big chilli crabs on the first Monday after CNY, possibly followed by frog (eewww) at Geylang, and mabbe Tow Huey at Rochor. Haha...all courtesy of Tricia's wonderful idea.

I guess it's the gathering and time spent that I relished more than the food itself. Of coz, I'm not saying that I don't appreciate the food, I do. Just that the company certainly makes the food tastes so much better =) Like just now, though the food wasnt tip top, but it was still a great, fun experience. Our morale dipped when we made our journey back to Spore. SIgh.

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V day is just round the corner, so what grand plans are in store? I was talking to a fren that day, and we ended up chatting about the 'window' period I have gone through - 2 yrs. A tad too long. But not of my choice.

I've more or less decided that I shall either meet up with a best fren whos single too, then mabbe we'll do dinner; or, this is my plan - holed up in office doing OT till at least 10pm, then take the lonely journey home alone on the mrt. Primarily, I have absolutely no wish to see lovey-dovey couples strolling down town hand clasped in hand, or cuddling one another. Hopefully doing that can help me avoid these heart-wrenching moments that may just make me turn green with envy.

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I haven't been in the greatest mood these days. Things have been happening, and I've been hurting. And the pain is more poignant at night, when certain memories come haunting back.

The could-have-beens, the what-ifs, the if-onlys...I had asked God to guard my heart, and all was well initially. But I guess I had let my guard down. Now all I can do is to hate myself for that, for putting myself through this. When will I ever learn?? Never, I guess.

I try not to think about it, hoping for the best that time will heal this little wound. Yeah, that would mean patience on my side. In the meantime....I guess I shall continue hurting then.