好想你

你微笑 不代表你想拥抱
你的拥抱 不代表一切美好
如果说 梦想是一个气泡
至少我能够触摸得到

我眼睛 看不见你的需要
你的耳朵 听不见我的祈祷
如果说 天气都难以预告
爱情的痕迹 往哪里找

我要对你多好 你要爱我多少
有甚麽重要 也许答案得走过天涯海角
最後才知道 听得见你心跳 最重要

你的泪 不代表我的烦恼
我的感动 不代表你的心跳
也难怪 亲吻的时候须要
闭起了眼睛 才有味道

Let's Be Happy...for now

'Nuff of the depressing stuff for awhile. Let's share some happy news. Or at least good stuff to lighten up my stressed mode.

Hmm, countdown to Australia - 3 days! Much as I've been to Aussie land for quite a number of times, I'm still grateful for this break. Who wouldn't appreciate a holiday huh...though of course, erm, timing is a little tight here. More importantly, I'm spending quality time with my dearest. How not to be happy huh *wide grin* Though...I'll have a small price to pay - bringing my school work there to. Yeah I know. *roll eyes*

Well, whatever it is...I'll take the first Qantas flight out on Weds morning, and by evening time same day, I'll touch down at Sydney. I would have wanted to take the last midnite flight out on SQ, right after my class on Tues nite. But well, price is not right. Air tix costs some 300+ more at least. Oh well. I'll hang around Sydney on Thurs; we'll pick up the car on Thurs morning, and Friday we'll set off for Gold Coast. We'll be staying in Gold Coast till the subsequent Weds, and drive back to Sydney, and spend the rest of the days there till I fly back to Singapore on Sunday. It's my one week vacation, that's why I've got no classes. One and a half weeks of bliss. =D

I bought my airtix online, settled my visa, changed my currency...what's left is to pack my bag now. But before that, I would need to come up with a list of the stuff to bring. I can already foresee myself frantically doing my packing on Tues nite till the wee hours of the morning. Sigh.

But when I come back to spore, it'll be hell. I would have one assignment and one research presentation due. Sigh. So Sao Xing rite =\

Talking about projects...introducing one of my modules' group members!

Jac and myself, well we know each other through work already (she's my client). I'm glad to have her with me in the course. She motivates and pushes the lazy me. haha

Well, we were supposed to form a group of four, and the two "anti-social" girls found this pair of guys who didn't have any other members to form a group with too. They "miao-ed" us while we were unsure if they were "available" still. In any case, we formed a group, and soon hit it off. It's kinda like, we "wu suo bu tan" now *grin* It's a nice bunch of friends, really. No competitiveness, no jealousy, no rivalry. We were giving and ready to lend a helping hand whenever needed. I'm glad and fortunate that my first group members in NTU are this wacky and fun bunch. *wide grin*

Oh I snatched the photo from Ben's blog. Wahaha. He even bothered to name us. Haa. He even wrote an entry about us. How honoured. Heh. Read his entry here, entitled "in a himbo mode". We were having a group discussion in Bugis National Library Children's Section (now termed Kiddy Land, no thanks to Ben too..Haha), and he suddenly stood up and snapped a photo. Only Eugene looked at him. I was well...shy. Hee.

My turn to do an introduction on my group members. If you found Eugene familiar, that's course he's the host for the current affairs programme on channel 8 "Frontline" aka qian xian zhui zong. Ming ren ye...hahaha. Ben works at Republic Poly, Corp Comms. An engineer by training, he started with RP's HR actually. Interesting mix eh. Jac...dun need say liao lah. Hahaha..me and you so shou liao hoh =)

Alrite..will keep it short here. More next time then. Though I dunno how long the next entry will take me to pen. Haa. Ciao.

确定，你就是我的唯一

Wandering like a leaf upon the wind

I have been searching for someone

Holding out for a love to shake my soul

Heaven or nothing

Then you walked into my life

In a blaze of light

I've never wanted someone more

You are the one I've waited for

Light of my life

You're the fire in my heart

When I'm lost

I know I'll feel you burning in the dark

You're the light of my life

Every star in the sky

Shines more brightly when you're at my side

And dreaming, I feel you next to me

But no, I'm not dreaming

Cause I'm drowning in your kiss

I die in your arms

And when I hear you call my name

Baby, it's like I'm born again

Your love's a lantern in the rain

Bringing me home time and again

Burning like an eternal flame

Light of my life

You're the beat of my heart

Like stars in the sky

Only you can take me through

You're the only one who makes it right

Coz only you can set fire to my night

You - the light of my life

Joy and Happiness...leads to Contentment (part1)

There are a thousand and one things I can say now...and yet, not be able to say. I just dunno where to start! Life's good now, everything is near-perfect =) Near, but not perfect yet (nothing can be ever perfect). I mean, of coz there are the things I can go on bitch about for days (money, work, ppl...etc) But I am almost contented. It's like, everything has started falling into place, and I can start being grateful for all that I have now. Or will have.

I graduated 3 yrs ago, found a job within the month despite the economy being down in the doldrums, and even though it's a small firm, the money sux...the job nature and most importantly, the ppl there more than make up for it. I guess I can safely say I love my boss, my boss loves me...and everyone else loves me =) I may not have a lot of dough, but in the least I make enough to give myself a comfortable life.

And as you would have known by now, I'll be embarking on a new challenge in two months' time - starting grad sch. I nearly wanted to use the phrase "starting on a new phase of my life"...but no, I think that doesn't really count. My life isn't going to undergo some overhaul because of that. Rather, my life will change because of the additional responsibilities I would have, that I would have to adapt to.

But I think what is and what will be life changing for me, is the new addition in my life. Strictly speaking, he isn't a new addition to my life. *grin* He's always been around me; friends we've been for close to ten years I think (when I was in JC1). Somehow, things just didn't happen..or rather, it was kinda like wrong person or wrong timing. I guess we've come a long way indeed. There were the wrong people in between, bad situations, etc. It's sorta like what many would have heard before, you are looking and searching, but the person has actually always been around you all this time. Yeah, that's it, something so simple, yet complicated by little twists of fates. But seems that everything has come full circle now. Life's funny like that, once you let go of the wheel, you just might end up right where you belong. And I guess I do feel that with him, he is where I belong.

These past 2 months or so has been life-changing for me...ok, too strong a word. Life-transforming. We both have developed rather fast, but positively, I would say. He was cautious...very, I should add. Or perhaps I should say I don't like to look at things too complicatedly. The world is complex as it is; it doesn't need any more input from me. But well, things remained that way.

Anyways to cut the story short, we had a sort of burst-up, and that's when he realised he shouldn't be making me sad anymore (he told me so...hee). I'm glad things turn out ok. It was kinda surreal in the beginning, coz the fate-twisting moments and the fairytale ending made everything seemed unbelievable. But well...it is happening. Has happened, actually.

Some very important things I've learnt. One - both must want this to work. Both must work together. We all know it takes two to clap, but how loud, how resounding is the applause? That depends on both parties now, doesn't it? How much strength you apply, how fast you bring you hand down, how you fashion your clap (I know this sounds kinda physics-y); it all makes a whole lot of difference. Simply said, it's the effort you want to, are willing to and WILL invest. Talk is cheap, but actions and speech goes together; neither can do without the other. You need to share your thoughts and do it.

The other thing I've learnt - Sharing. Sharing your thoughts, sharing your plans and ideals...basically, sharing your lives. It makes a whole lot of difference, and I appreciate that really a whole lot more because he isn't in Singapore (for now at least). It makes me understand the meaning and value of sharing. I guess that's the case with human beings; when things come easy, we tend to take things for granted.

But I do believe in one thing - what doesn't kill you will only make you stronger. *smile* We've had our fair share of quarrels, some petty issues, some big arguments. But at the end of the day, there is an unspoken consensus; that these quarrels are a process for us to get to know each other better. It doesn't entail anything more than learning to understanding each other. Some people tend to see quarrels as a breaking point, that it is an indication of ill-fit. Granted, I'm not saying quarrels are ALL good. Everything must serve a purpose. You don't quarrel for the sake of arguing or winning an argument. At the end of the day, we must solve it, learn from it...or at least move on from it. Much as we feel like a perfect fit, like a glove to a hand, we are also still learning to accomodate each other in some areas. Tweaking and fine-tuning the works. And this is a never-ending learning process. Once you think you've got it all...then I guess it's time to start worrying. Because you can never get it all.

But of course...it helps quite a fair bit that he gives in to me *hee* or rather, he knows what makes me tick...the stuff that makes me melt and go all soft and gooey. Heh...He picks up fast. Haha...

I guess it's all about looking at the positive side of things. I'm probably the last person who has a right to talk about optimism. But hey, there are still things I know I should be positive about. And I'm learning still, to be less pessimistic.

I certainly don't mean to sound like a self-righteous guru now...you should realise that I'm just sharing some aspects of what I have personally gone through. Every person is unique, and that makes every relationship one of a kind too. I'm sure you've got your lessons to share, your stories to tell. I'm just sharing mine. =D but I guess I oughta stop now, in case I become too overbearing. I'll share more in Part 2...soon, hopefully =)

P/S: I've just realised that I took 2 weeks to write, finish and post this entry. Yes, hopefully the nx won't take as long...There are just thousand and one things I want to include la...heh

Tricia's Birthday *click on photos to read captions*

Another new post of photos =) a picture paints a thousand words, aint it?
Haha...well I'm actually in the midst of writing a very long post, so it still is "in production". In the meantime, I shall just put some photos up to satisfy some bored souls while I try to get other entries in order. Amateur photoshopping, so no laughing allowed.

Dedicated to you...

...for the man you want to be, for the man you almost are...

She'll let you in her house

If you come knockin' late at night

She'll let you in her mouth

If the words you say are right

If you pay the price

She'll let you deep inside

But there's a secret garden she hides

She'll let you in her car

To go drivin' round

She'll let you into the parts of herself

That'll bring you down

She'll let you in her heart

If you've got a hammer and a vise

But into her secret garden

don't think twice

You've gone a million miles

How far you'd get

To that place where you can't remember

And you can't forget

She'll lead you down a path

There'll be tenderness in the air

She'll let you come just far enough

So you'd know she's really there

She'll look at you and smile

And her eyes will say

She's got a secret garden

Where everything you want

Where everything you need

Will always stay

A million miles away